Peggy Myers

Peggy Myers,passed away december 1992.
I am doing this for you Grandma so u know i still miss you & think of you all the time.For as long as i can remember you was always my favourite person,i loved coming to see you & never wanted to go home when i got there.We used to come see you a few times a week,my best day to come was Friday,i knew i was sleeping over & didn't have to go home till morning,i never imagined the day when you would not be here,i always thought you would be here for always.When i was in junior school i thought i was so lucky to have my Grandma serving me school dinner,plus i saw you every day as well.I remember you retiring from school dinners an assembly was done for you & we got up & presented you with pressies.
No sooner had you retired it was time for me to start secondary school,you always said how smart i looked in my uniform(i hated it).I remeber how i used to wish i could live with you,but it didn't happen i was happy enough that i stopped weekends.
Even when i went to secondary school i still loved to come & stay & you would say you wouldn't mind if i didn't want to stay now i was getting older(as if i would ever stop coming to see you)I can still remember when you started getting poorly & you were in hospital,you always said you were fine!! I hated seeing you ill & i hated it even more when you were told you had cancer.
Finally i had got my own way & came to live with you to look after you(if only you didn't have to be poorly for me to have to live with you)I didn't like it when you were in & out of hospital it meant i had to go back home,i was always worried i wouldn't be able to come back when you came home,but i did come back.We booked our holidays while you was ill & they didn't know if you would be able to go or not & just before we went they said you could go,you had your wheelchair & we all went away,that was our last holiday with you.
You didn't really get any better from after the holiday & the more poorly you became the more it looked like we would have to go live at mum & dad's,i didn't like to think we would have to go it was like i could not manage,but it was for the best.
You lost a lot of weight & it was awful to see you like it,you still made me laugh though.You was in my bedroom when we went home till it got to the point where you couldn't manage the steps,then yr bed was in the room.The thought still never crossed my mind you would be going anywhere even though you were so ill.
The day you died is as clear as though it was yesterday,you were brighter than you had been for a few days,i was off school for the day to go to the dentist,dad was away with work for the day,you were listening to the music when i left the house,i gave you a kiss & said see you soon.If i had known that was going to be my last love & kiss from you i would have held on a bit longer & squeezed you tighter.In a couple of hours my whole world fell apart,i lost the most important person in my life,i didn't want to believe you were gone,you were fine the last time i saw you(how quickly things change)At your funeral i wore my school uniform for you(i still hated it)that was it you were gone,but at least you were out of pain & not suffering anymore.
I can't believe how fast the years have gone by since you died,i often think about what you would say to me & think about me if you were still here now.Would you be dissapointed in me for having the kids so young(you would be so proud of them all if you were here though)Maybe i would not have had the kids if you were still her,if you had not had cancer & was still here i would most likely be living with(you would never have got rid of me).
There have been special times over the years when i wish you had been here to see me & say how proud you were,i am sure you have been there with me in a way,i miss you so much & hope if you do keep an eye on me you are proud of how i have turned out & one day i will see you again.
Take care of us all,i could not have wished for a better Grandma than i got,watch over us all till we see you again.
All my love always Kellyxxxxxxx